The reason you are suffering is because you care and have expectations.
But honestly... fuck it, nothing fucking matters as much as you think it does.
We're literally living on a spec of dust surrounded by eternal darkness.
Yeah, it;s an abysmal outlook to think that life is meaningless.
But it can also give us strength...
Strength to get through the suffering that life puts us through.
Realizing that nothing matters as much as we think it does will give us the strength we need to prevail against life's struggles.